“Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity.”
Good Evening Friends,
So tonight I start with a verse from the Bible, one that was actually very crucial to my ministry and I still hold it near and dear to my heart even now. In the hebrew context, vanity is something meaningless, and what the Preacher saw and what I see on a day to day basis is meaninglessness.
So what is on my mind tonight? The idiocy of living for the meaningless. How much of my life was devoted to absolutely meaningless pursuits? I used to spend to the point it hurt, and went without necessities so that I could have the latest gadget. Also, I spent the majority of my life worrying about what other people thought of me. How should I speak? What should I wear? What should I indulge in and what should I abstain from? The days, weeks, months and years that were wasted on bullshit. Time that I can never get back, and so that would worry me even more.
I don’t worry anymore, or at least a much less amount than I did in the past. Today I don’t accept bullshit and I live my life in a way that makes me happy. My hair is long, my beard is not perfect, I don’t wear the nicest clothes and I rent instead of own. Why do I do these things because I find the less I do or own, the happier I am. The more true I am to myself, the happier I become. I don’t tend to enjoy things that the majority of Americans do. I don’t want a fast car or a big house, I do not see that those will bring be lasting peace and contentment. I reject much of what the “American Dream” is. I do this because attempting to follow it, never brought me joy, and following my own path has brought me a great deal of joy. Try it, stop worrying about other people and be yourself.
Anyway, in other news, I have been watching the Bernie Sanders/Ted Cruz debate on CNN. Cruz’s rehearsed and screeching voice has made completing this blog incredibly hard. However I will say, if you want to know exactly what is wrong with this nation, listen to Ted Cruz speak for a few minutes. Every single word, and every single gesture has been rehearsed to the point that he might as well have simply recorded his responses and played them back in response to Senator Sanders. There is absolutely nothing real about the man, and here is the point. Ted Cruz is miserable, Ted Cruz hates himself, he can’t stand the sound of his own voice, but in order to give his pathetic excuse for a life, some meaning, he continues to spew this conservative dogma that has continually failed us in the past.
On the other hand, Sanders is a human being, he answers the questions, shows real emotion and sympathizes with those who are asking questions. Strangely enough though, Sanders is considered the more evil of the two because of the dreaded word, socialist. The absolute hilarity of this is that the majority of what you have come to know and enjoy in America, is SOCIALIST!!!! You know that if your house catches fire, you can call the fire department. You know that if your house gets broken into, you can call the police to assist you. You enjoy driving on publicly built highways and interstates, use publicly owned utilities and have a socialist funded army and navy to defend our nation.
What people don’t understand is that there is a big difference between the National Socialist Movements and the actual term Socialism. When fascism enters the picture it always comes into power with a populist movement that esteems some social reforms. It pretends to be about social justice but comes into play with a foot on the head of every person it says it will help. I want to point out that our current environment of American Fascism came to power, promising a return of jobs, huge programs in infrastructure and other social reforms. These are all socialist in theory but fascist in nature. Also if we are going to ever compete on a global scale, we have to have a healthy and happy populace, something impossible in today’s crony capitalist society.
Anyway, I kinda drifted tonight, but those are my thoughts.